Oh Laura,
I am crying right now, with gratitude and relief and appreciation for your understanding and loving heart and mind. You really do understand. Of course there are things about DID that are unknown to you, but the important parts about the littles..... you really do get it.

Thank you for writing, and feeling, that you are glad to be knowing about the little ones you will be making the dolls for, and that you will be putting love into the stitches. That is something our littles long for, to have someone who knows them make something for them, with love. We know that we will feel the love that you will put into the dolls as you make them. And that will give healing.

We really wanted to be able to communicate with you in emails, without censoring ourselves, to be able to say something about our littles and the dolls like "the little Saras love hedgehogs," or Cara has curly blonde hair, and would like her doll to have pockets for holding treasures", or "Jennifer is grieving her baby who was killed, and would love have a baby doll to hold." And now we can write things like that, and you will understand.

And now we can tell you about our winged ones. Some of us have wings. Wings are important, the ability to fly. There are winged animals, large dogs with wings, and other kinds of animals. And some winged ones are human, or like angels.
Winged ones often give comfort and help to littles, but they are full-fledged personalities. They are ones-of-us.
When my son was quite little, he knew that he needed to stand close by me and hold my hand if we were on a cliff or a high ledge. Somehow he knew that some of us thought that we could fly. He kept us on the ground.

I have another friend, Vickie, we meet on Saturday afternoon and create the quilted banners and tablecloth covers that are used for different seasons in the sanctuary of our church. I taught Vickie to quilt and work improvisationally, and Vickie is a friend to all of us, and gives our littles understanding and hugs. When I feel little, the young parts of me so long to be seen and cared about. We can never have what it feels like to be in a child's body and be held with love. But, as my psychiatrist says, "We hold each other in different ways." We feel like you are seeing us. Thank you. One time I asked Vickie what it is like to be friends with someone who is multiple, and she said it is having lots of friends.

By responding to us with such openness, and caring, we feel like you are in the special category of our friends who can "see" our littles.

Thank you for being supportive of our trying to learn to make dolls. We're a little intimidated. But I think we need to try. We want to try.
But that doesn't change our wanting to buy your dolls. Different littles fall in love with different ones of your dolls.

We have to go get ready for therapy. Sally is our main therapist. I hope you don't mind, we want to share your letter with her. In therapy we have been talking about how Waldorf dolls are helping our Littles be in the present. It's always a little scary, telling someone we have DID, and what caused it. Some people withdraw. Some people recoil from the truth that DID represents.

What you wrote.... your response to our telling you about us......is such a gift.
You are a beautiful woman. Your children are incredibly blessed to have you as their mother.
Thank you for being a friend.

Littles want to say, Thank you for being nice to us. We loves the dollies you make.

—Carole (which is our name for all of us)